Sunflower Halved Hypersaturated

Sunflower Halved Hypersaturated
Yes this is a real sunflower I took this shot a couple of summers ago in the garden outside my work window

Monday, December 28, 2009

When Your Best Just Isn't...

Here we are a few days away from not only a new year, but the start of a new decade as well and I find myself thinking...a lot. I've been toying with the ideas of nice vs mean and good vs evil when it comes to my interactions with my extended family. Just to sum it up they suck! At the beginning of this year I decided that I would put forth the effort to be a better niece and actually phone regularly and try to recognize them for their birthday's and go to most family events, even if only for a little while if I had other plans. Now at the closing of this year I find myself a bit perplexed and just feeling strangely regarding them. I don't just feel for me though, but my father and sister as well. I know out of the four of us, I am the most sensitive, but I went from anger to just sadness, but why? Why do I allow people who obviously don't care to affect me so? I then start to remember all of the wrongs, which far outweigh the rights, that I shouldn't remember as most of them happened when I was very young. Exhausting. I quit, I'm jumping of the merry-go-round, I refuse to play the game any further.
I wasn't going to make any resolutions for the new year, but now I feel like it I should. I'll have to think about it though...
Happy Monday...

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