Sunflower Halved Hypersaturated

Sunflower Halved Hypersaturated
Yes this is a real sunflower I took this shot a couple of summers ago in the garden outside my work window

Tuesday, September 23, 2008


I have hit a bump in the road. Speaking with a friend (MH) this morning made me realize that I have an issue with not being right. Of course who doesn't like not being right, but I think I have it to the extreme. I never want to be wrong. In fact I believe I am never wrong and apparently, my movement through life with this mentality has crippled me to the point that now when being told that I have the possibility of being wrong, it gives me great anxiety. I have that anxiety right now as a matter of fact and there isn't enough deep breathing in the world to turn it around at this moment.

Along with not being right all the time I am also thinking about other things that I could "work" on. I talked to another friend (LR) this morning it was determined that maybe I take things a little too personal...well I mean if it's a personal criticism and since I have this "I have to be right thing" going on as well, I suppose I could see how all of this interacts.

And to top it all of I have another friend (E) who thinks that at times my trying t0 change is coming off as insincere....

I'm starting to feel as though I am entering a quarter life crisis...of course LR would call this my dramatics coming out again, but clearly I cannot enter 26 with all of these jaded views and actions. While I make no promises to change my personality to please anyone, I will make a conscious effort to make the appropriate changes at the appropriate times. That means my timeline for change may run a little slow for someones taste, but slow and steady wins the race.

So thanks M, L and E for the acknowledgements and for dealing with my less than receptive moments!