Sunflower Halved Hypersaturated

Sunflower Halved Hypersaturated
Yes this is a real sunflower I took this shot a couple of summers ago in the garden outside my work window

Sunday, November 2, 2008

I Remember...

Today, my brother Avery would have been 33 years old. I write his initials and birthday everyday. I try not to forget a lot of things, but I can not remember the date of his death.

I remember that is was seven years ago. I remember when the phone call came. I remember the first person I told and him trying to cheer me up. I remember the road trip to Florida. I remember driving my father, grandmother and sister to St Petersburg. I remember my father telling me to slow down because I was going way too fast. I remember breaking down when we got to St Pete because it finally became real for me that this was actually happening. I remember the blue carpet in the hotel. I remember fighting for my sister to not wear all black like my mother requested. I remember my cousin telling me my brother's other sisters were looking for me. I remember sitting in the car during the wake because I couldn't go in and see him like that. I remember the two hour conversation we had just weeks earlier. I remember wanting to fight his girlfriend/wife because I blamed her. I remember the fake phone number she gave us. I remember sitting on the church steps before the funeral. I remember not walking close to the casket while it was open. I remember the repass and being stared at by his other brothers and sisters. I remember driving back to Tallahassee from St. Pete in the rain. I remember wondering why this had to happen and being angry.

Of all the things I do remember, why can I not recall his date of death?